Goodbyes

Everybody's been saying their goodbyes...its a funny feeling...to be leaving your hometown of eighteen years for some strange place with strange people having a funny accent...And when you should be anxious...worried about leaving...about staying at a place so far away from home...parting from your family your friends..you're just too busy to think...it doesn't really sink in this way....except for when the people who love you look at you and say that they'll miss you...that you must take care of yourself...hug you tight and wave you goodbye... its then that your heart lurches at the thought of not being able to have your people around ...the thought of not being able to hug my brother..irritate him...gossiping with my mom or laughing with my dad...there....there'll be no friends to call my own...i'll be on my own...all alone...and sure its saddening...but it doesn't scare me....i have faith ...in whatever's ins tore for me...in my people's blessings :)

And an easy escape...an end to everything in a go...is extremely luring...it clouds my thoughts and pulls me...its an answer to how hollow i feel...

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I am so damn happy! :D...n i have no reason to be:P...got my physics pre board tomorrow! I am so screwed :D...nannanan nannanannnaaaaannanannn...lol yeah feel like singing hahahahaha.i've lost it man! physics usually does this to me;)..nd two and a half men gonna be back!!!! cheers to watching television :)!...and i must return! phew!...i should be pretty freaked out right now!! :P:P well 'm not:D:D:D:D:D
yayiee!!! byeeeeee!!!

Okay now 'm really bored..:| ughh!!! life sucks!! ^0^..i should be studying!! haha..i should always be studying!! :P..ummm..so what do i do??..well here i can be stupid anytime!! no one reads it anyways:D:D...gawwwwwwwwwwddddd..lol lol...man!! i guess i'll sleep!

GROSS (I dont know why):P

well, its been long. Things have turned around a bit..School's fun!! And I've almost given up on engineering..haa!..My life at this point is kind of perfect..keep the academic thingy out and woohoo!:)..And now when I see it...i think it was meant to be...what if I'm supposed to be teaching lterature...well howsoever out of my mind i might sound...i really like the idea...what if i could paint for the rest of my life?!..But, for now..i can't really figure out..and I think i'll reach where 'm destined to be...I know that's lame..but then you know its my life..when has it ever been planned..could it ever be?..I dont even wanna plan anymore!! hahaha..now you whwy is it so gross:P...and that is it for now!!

Elias:)

Kehte hain mohabbat mein neend ud jaati hai...koi humse bhi to pyaar kare..kambhaqt neend bohot aati hai.hahaha kudos to Aamir!!!!! (and Fanna ke script writer)..umm--nummm..mm..loving life..:)...not really full of moments that make me jump up high or scream aloud in joy...but, yeah a less crazy form of happiness and 'm liking it somehow. Great Friday dinners, weekend movies and an episode of Two and a half men every day..my life is more than perfect:D (minus the rising carbonated drink & cheese consumption). So..life's just a celebration for now..and I'm not afraid of tomorrow (which is bad in a lot of ways;))..
Bis dann:)